Mediocre’s all I can shoot for right now.
Not what I consider to be mediocre,
the standard mediocrity,
the dead average,
the passing grade.
I will never be satisfied with what I do;
I will never be good enough.
With my ever soaring standards, I will always
— and only —
be chasing achievements.
I will always find the faults;
I will always be a failure.
I admire those who use that to their advantage
and escalate their accomplishments.
Instead of motivation,
I’m bogged down by it
and unable to function.
All I can aim for right now is to
just get it over and done with.
And even that is a hurdle.